Me covering Buk’s “eulogy” at the 2016 Bukowski Birthday Bash.
Here’s to a successful launch for my book of poems ‘a synonym for sobriety’ ~ please get in touch with me here, or through any of my other social media, if you’d like to buy a copy! ($20 inc. postage to anywhere in Australia)
‘New Poets 20’ (Alys Jackson, Julia Wakefield and Sharon Foulkes) was also launched and is available now through Friendly Street or the authors!
The current laws of economic supply, demand and labor exchange value being what they are, the publication of a poetry collection might fairly be described as, at most, a modest marker of success in conventional terms, but I can nevertheless say that it remains a welcome and significant occurrence for me.
Personally, that may be in part because the poems in ‘a synonym for sobriety’ are drawn from a good decade of work and, thus, contain all the network of memory, experience, opinion and reflection that one’s writing necessarily represents. The earliest were probably written in some form or another eleven or twelve years ago now, with others finished not long before I submitted the manuscript earlier this year. I enjoyed being able to weave such temporally disparate poems into something like a meaningful, if loose, poetic narrative and it feels good to have that decade so elegantly summarized with a first collection published at the end of 2019.
But it’s also significant because while poetry, and art more broadly, may not always attract the kinds of financial rewards that are the dominant currency of our day, art’s value lies of course, as true value does and should, in the ideas, emotions, stories and communities that circle around it. To be a part of those communities – and being recognized by them – is thus an affirming and privileged position to occupy.
So in that spirit I’d like to thank FRIENDLY STREET POETS Inc. of course, for providing the space and opportunities for local poets to ‘sing’ as I believe the charter puts it? In particular, thanks to convener Nigel Ford for his many efforts on behalf of poetry in South Australia and to Steve Evans for helping edit and prepare both my book and the New Poets volume for publication.
I’d also like to thank some of the other local publishers, creative types and event hosts who provide those spaces and opportunities around Adelaide, particularly those I’ve been most involved with: Paroxysm Press and their monthly Spoke N Slurred open mic; the crew behind Sticks & Stones – poetry in flight open mic, another great gig I’ve found myself becoming a regular at in recent years; and the fantastic radio-poetry program Well Versed on PBAFM 89.7 coming up to its second run for next year’s Fringe!
And finally a more general thanks must go to all the little magazines – mostly digital, these days – who solicit, read and publish so many poems sent by emerging writers, including many of my own from this collection. You can see that full list of acknowledgments in the book, but a few available for tagging include Red Fez, The Rye Whiskey Review, Tulpa Magazine, Better Than Starbucks, Not your ordinary poetry magazine and Brian Fugett, former editor at the now sadly defunct ‘Zygote in My Coffee’ magazine.
I think Charles Bukowski once said that sending your work off for submission can feel like screaming into a void, particularly when responses sometimes take many months and often come back negative, but when those little emailed acceptance slips do come it can give a poet surprising amounts of energy and impetus to keep hammering the keys. I’m sure you can relate.
Thanks also to Thomas C. Bunning for these extra photos of the event!
And of course, to Chelsea Avard ~ my partner in poetic crime.
Very happy to find a home for my essay A Radical Liberalism in the latest issue of Eclectica Magazine, as kindly summarized by nonfiction editor David Ewald below:
With humor and compassion, Ben Adams not only divulges to us that he was a Nazi at the tender age of six but argues that there is a way forward for progressives (otherwise known, in conservative circles especially, as “liberals”): a way to speak, think, act and exist in this bravado new world while not altering one’s fundamental nature or principles.
Or, as I describe the piece in my contributor’s note: an intellectual memoir that uses my own experience of political and ideological development to explore contemporary Western sociopolitical issues regarding a resurgent far-right, the apparent decline of traditional liberal ideals and the liberal status quo, along with the apparent failure of many nominally progressive voices to adequately identify or confront these challenges.
In short, it’s my attempt to explain why and how I think we can do better at caring about other people, and why a radical kind of liberalism can help us do it. Also with jokes, and plenty of pop-cultural references. See if you can spot them all!
Please like and share if you’re so inclined—I’d love to hear your thoughts on it.
I think its worth noting why many of us may want to draw particular attention to and place special weight on the kind of radically extreme right-wing terrorist attack that’s just occurred in New Zealand.
I say this knowing and because of the inevitable accusations from radicals on the far right and conservatives who tack closer to mainstream opinion alike, that liberals, progressives and leftists are hypocritically unbalanced in their criticism of violent acts committed by terrorists of differing ideological motivations.
In a sense, one that’s important to reiterate, this is simply not true. Liberals, progressives and leftists of all stripes worth their salt are routinely horrified by acts of authoritarian, often religious or state-orchestrated violence against individuals whatever the context.
But in the small, kernel-of-truth sense in which such accusations by reactionaries are correct, they are so only in a willfully misguiding way.
The reason that many on the activist left, or enlightenment liberals, or humanist progressives seem to react with such particular sadness and rage, anger or despair at such crimes as those committed in Christchurch, is not because of a double standard but, rather, a universal one.
The lie of the Right is to have us all believe that faiths, cultures, nations and civilizations are all predetermined, that they spring from some immaculate origin already shaped without a hand from anything so earthly as politics, trade, war, imperialism, greed, words… History.
The lie is that, in this instance, a religious culture responsible for the propagation of art, poetry, mathematics and science across the world in times when medieval Europe was a scum pit of feudal barbarity, that such a culture might be reduced to some caricature of stuttering, zealous violence and unthinking hatred for the ideal of Western freedom. And such a brazen, unenlightened lie it stands as.
The facts, of course, are that multitudes of factors go into radicalizing those who commit violence – those MEN, in absurdly disproportionate numbers, who are radicalized into violence.
The reason that many react differently to a perpetration of violence by radical, white nationalists when compared with Islamic extremists is not because we judge the acts to be different in their murderous effects or moral degeneracy.
Rather it’s because we balk, sickened, at the sheer hypocrisy of men who essentially compound their crime by committing it supposedly in the name of a pluralist, democratic society faced with threatening outsiders.
They commit a crime purportedly to defend precisely what they are, in that moment, seeking to destroy. And they are often supported by the structures of power, their representatives, at the highest level of institutions meant to be committed against them, against their ideology of brute power and irrational hate.
Institutions that still can, it should be said, be leveraged against them – we are not yet over that line.
The facts of Islamic extremism are exaggerated, hyperbolised, distorted and deployed for the most illiberal of ends – but Islamic extremism does exist, nevertheless, and must be contended with.
But we, here, now – you and I, if you want to claim some kind of historically ambiguous ‘western’ identity role – WE are responsible if anyone is, for the actions of actual NAZIS who gun down innocents at prayer in some quiet, small corner of the world. The person who did this was a white, Australian man driven by ideologies and hatreds I’ve seen across from me at pub tables, in the eyes of acquaintances, in the stuttered ramblings of half drunks who still knew just enough what they were saying about the Muslims, the Jews, the Missus, to send a shudder down even my cis-het, secular waspish spine.
Take care of your own house. Our house. This is our problem. Let’s fucking deal with it.
Please come along tomorrow night to see me and five other far more talented bastards throw words off the stage, for the second round of three in this 2019 Showcase Poetry Series from Paroxysm Press.
66 Grote Street
Over 3 huge nights we present 18 of the best underground authors, artists and spoken word performers. Their work comes to the stage tight, slick and hard hitting with a stubborn desire to entertain.New work, Paroxysm favourites and a few surprises, it is the best value entertainment in the Fringe.
If poetry has a punk scene, you’ll find it here.
Pleased to have my poem watercolours published today in Poet’s Corner on InDaily, compiled by John Miles.
As he says, this poem “completes two months of South Australian-themed poems” featured by the paper with my “reflections on impressionist visions” after Moonta, on the Copper Coast.
Photo: denisbin / flickr
Rightly lauded as being among the most important literary narratives concerned with representing – and reflecting upon – the experience and legacy of America’s Vietnam War, Tim O’Brien’s The Things They Carried (1990) is a self-described “work of fiction” that is, nevertheless, a clear and openly autobiographical series of interlinked stories drawing names, places, events and emotional impact from the author’s own memories, both of the war and its aftermath.
This apparent contradiction between O’Brien’s description of the work as being “imaginary” save “for a few details regarding the author’s own life” and its simultaneous dedication to “the men of Alpha company, and in particular to Jimmy Cross, Norman Bowker, Rat Kiley, Mitchell Sanders, Henry Dobbins, and Kiowa” (all names of both the book’s characters and, we are invited to assume, real world individuals the author served with) is not merely incidental. Indeed, O’Brien’s narrative is quite directly concerned throughout with questions about the ambiguous lines between truth and fiction, between the different kinds of truth we tell about the world and, most of all, with the ways that storytelling is inextricably bound up with our own sense of self.
Hence, for example, we are told several times about the particular way Rat Kiley has of recounting his war stories, as in ‘Sweetheart of the Song Tra Bong’ when the narrator tells us that “Rat had a reputation for exaggeration and overstatement, a compulsion to rev up the facts … It wasn’t a question of deceit. Just the opposite: he wanted to heat up the truth, to make it burn so hot that you would feel exactly what he felt.” What this gets at is a kind of metaphorical truth, what literary scholar Timothy Dow Adams means when he writes that “autobiography is the story of an attempt to resolve one’s life with one’s self and is not, therefore, meant to be taken as historically accurate but as metaphorically authentic” (Telling Lies in Modern American Autobiography). O’Brien writes: “You can tell a true war story by the way it never seems to end” – and The Things They Carried seems to circle endlessly around precisely this desire to resolve one’s life and self, to make sense of the distance between what one has been through, been weighted down by or done and who one is, in some other, bigger and more enduring sense.
Part of the answer, of course, is that our stories can become (or perhaps, cannot help becoming) our selves. For a writer, more so than anyone else, this is a potential source of redemptive power, a way to live with inevitable loss. As in the final story, ‘The Lives of the Dead’ when O’Brien describes the death of his childhood love, Linda from a brain tumour: “She died, of course. Nine years old and she died … But in a story I can steal her soul. I can revive, at least briefly, that which is absolute and unchanging. It’s not the surface that matters, it’s the identity that lives inside. In a story, miracles can happen.” In the end, we are led to wonder, is the self perhaps nothing more than metaphorical truth, a sense of singularity and wholeness braced against the assaults and invasions of an inchoate world outside – the experience of soldiers moving through a messy, morally ambiguous war in which “the things they carried were largely determined by necessity”; the knowledge that even nine year old girls sometimes get sick and “don’t ever get better.”
But even that would be to miss a part of the burden we carry, the responsibility of choice we cannot escape. Part of the great power in O’Brien’s narrative is that it combines a tragic evocation of the ways that men and women (in a way similar to how Linda’s death is described, we are told how Mary Anne in ‘Sweetheart of the Song Tra Bong’ eventually “walked off into the mountains and did not come back”) are acted upon by forces outside their control and shaped by the world – without ever letting go of the sense that they remain, also, autonomous selves with the simultaneous capacity for compassion and cruelty, courage and cowardice.
This is arguably where O’Brien’s authorial voice becomes most effectively moving, being that of “a quiet, thoughtful sort of person, a college grad” who meets the realisation that “after seven months in the bush … those high, civilised trappings had somehow been crushed under the weight of the simple daily realities. I’d turned mean inside. Even a little cruel at times. For all my education, all my fine liberal values, I now felt a deep coldness inside me, something dark and beyond reason.” We are presented with few easy or simple ways to be good, O’Brien suggests, but that gives little respite from the weight of confronting our failures nonetheless.
But for all the undeniable complexities of place and circumstance, time and memory on which O’Brien reflects, that he turns over and examines in these stories of war and self, there remain moments of simple, if often cutting, moral clarity that stand out all the more so by comparison. Sometimes, the starkness of a simple observation inverted from what society has told us to believe, from how the world has demanded we act, shoots out from O’Brien’s narrative and hits the reader with both its obvious truth and sprawling implications. Such a moment comes at the end of ‘On the Rainy River’ in which O’Brien recounts the few days he spent staying at a remote lodge on the river border between Minnesota and Canada, contemplating whether or not to flee north and escape being “drafted to fight a war I hated.” While he initially outlines a variety of reasonable, high-minded and civilised objections to America’s war in Vietnam (“blood was being shed for uncertain reasons. I saw no unity of purpose, no consensus on matters of philosophy or history or law. The very facts were shrouded in uncertainty”) the story ends with a simpler motivation for the choice of whether or not to fight. At the moment of truth, willing himself to jump from a small aluminium boat and swim to shore on the Canadian side, O’Brien’s narrator cannot:
All those eyes on me – the town, the whole universe – and I couldn’t risk the embarrassment. It was if there was an audience to my life, that swirl of faces along the river, and in my head I could hear people screaming at me. Traitor! They yelled. Turncoat! Pussy! I felt myself blush. I couldn’t tolerate it. I couldn’t endure the mockery, or the disgrace, or the patriotic ridicule. Even in my imagination, the shore just twenty yards away, I couldn’t make myself be brave. It had nothing to do with morality. Embarrassment, that’s all it was.
At moments like this, O’Brien’s stories touch on the recurring importance of understanding how we can all be moved to act, to do one thing or another, not because of what our minds or morality tell us, but instead because of something we sense, for good or bad, in the gut. “A true war story makes the stomach believe.”
‘On the Rainy River’ ends with a remembrance and confession: “The day was cloudy. I passed through towns with familiar names, through the pine forests and down to the prairie, and then to Vietnam, where I was a soldier, and then home again. I survived, but it’s not a happy ending. I was a coward. I went to the war.” We move along, often, as if through bland normalcy or insignificant moments when in fact, we are shaping the stories of not just ourselves, but the world around us. And they are what remain.
Please come along to be regaled this season by some fantastic Australian poetry and prose, read by Adelaide’s best actors – along with great live music to kick the night off at the Spring installment of Quart Short Literary Reading Nights.
Tickets available at the door or via TryBooking